Tuesday, November 30, 2004
Finally he say out !
Wow.. Power! I slept at 5am in the morning and woke up at 8am .. So shack ! As usual , i'll go work but i reach there at 1015am .. Today is abit late then as usual and maybe that is due to my suitation .. So think at about 2pm i message Boon Hwee (just to inform him that i wanna take back my clothes and i'll terminate off the singtel line that he's using) .. To my surprise , he did reply .. So as to make it more convenient ,i called him up .. But after saying so many things with him , he FINALLY SAY THAT ACTUALLY HE WANNA BE BY MY SIDE IS JUST TO TAKE CARE OF ME WITHOUT LETTING ANY GUYS TO BULLY ME .. To me it was like , he's just out there to pity me only ..I felt damn sad , TEARS ROLLING DOWN ON MY FACE AGAIN .. I know , shedding tears for this type of guy is not worth it , but i really can't help it .. At 4pm , josh (who's also known as my CUTIE) , came into my printing room .. Actually he just wanna have a normal talk with me only , in the end he still ask me things about Boon Hwee .. Tears keep rolling down as he start the 1st question on Boon .. I know the way i react will make him more depressed but i really can't help it .. I feel so uneasy and touch by him , all the things that he do .. Hmm .. at 920pm , then i went our with my family to our FAMILY CHALET at changi .. When i saw my cousin (Amelyn , my dearest meimei , who's only 14) , i told her about Boon .. Obvisouly she can't help me much nor giving me any advise .. But i'm so shock that she did drink .. So after we finish up the drink , we walk all the way out to 'CHEERS' to contiune our drinking sesssion .. Didn't really drink much (got those high/blur feeling) and amelyn was still very ok to me .. Haiz .. Think i'll stop here now , keep seeing things in blur vision .. ***I must be strong , he's not worth my love at all , there all much more better guys out there waiting for me***
Memories kept in Princess* ™ at 1:00 AM