Saturday, May 06, 2006
Changes in life
Lots of thing is happening and changing around me .. Even the one who will / can stand by me also in love trouble .. The trouble that she had in her had caused her to suspect she got depression .. Things aren't getting well for her also .. Sometimes i really don't know how to help her and this stress me alot too .. I got things which i wanted to tell her , letting her know , but all those words are harsh and i know she would not want to hear .. It'll only caused us unhappiness and quarrel between us again .. ** Girl , sometimes i'm harsh on you but giving you good advise doesn't sound nice sometime , you got to accept it .. You really got to put in all your very best in him ... I won't and can't say much here .. Lastly , relationship thing is hard for me like an outsider to help , everything depend on you and him .. It requires two hands to clap in other for things to work out in a relationship ..
**NOW , it's about my problem again .. I broke off with my dear dear , Terry yesterday afternoon .. Reason is i find that the two of us don't match , we won't have any good ending being together .. I know he's good to me , showing his attention towards me .. He just want to ensure i'm safe at home , got food to eat the moment i wake up all this etc .. But , i told him before , i'm weird .. It's hard to catches my heart , my mind , my thinking , my everything .. Sometime i want this from you but somtime i want that from you .. My mood swing and thinking can just change , right on the spot .. I got heart problem ( in chinese ) deep inside me , i also don't know what i want sometime , i'm lost , lost in the sea .. I really don't know .. Now , i don't and can't even understand myself already , not anymore .. Don't even know what i trying to write in my blog .. My blog is like a piece of rubbish , without feeling anymore .. * heartbroken*
Anyway i went out at 1245pm , after i've write the above stuff to zoo with friends .. I just want to relax , trying to be happy as going zoo will make me happy ( maybe i'm too childish , too free with my time ) .. Reached at 2pm , bought the ticket at $15 per person .. Wow , it's getting more and more expensive .. But to me , i don't care anymore .. Just get the ticket and quickly start my tour inside the zoo .. Have alot of fun in there and it's really a good place to go to release my stress .. I just behave like any small kids that i saw in there .. So happy .. Finally i found / got the chance to see my favourite animal .. The Baboons .. Baboon is the only animal in my mind which i wanted to see very much .. With their reddish butts on them , their carefree life , living in the nature and they're so loving .. How i wish i could be like them , living in a carefree world without any stress or pain .. I really do envy them ( sound a bit insane ) .. Oh mighty god .. Can i have a chance to stay in the zoo , a small little wish ? I want to try out the feeling of staying in the zoo too .. * wink * Left the zoo around 5pm and got myself a smoothie , a mango and more flavour want .. Took bus 138 from the bus stop outside to ang mo kio then took a cab down to geylang as my friend had to test the suit cause he got to be his friend's , Ziming , best man .. After finish testing the suit , we walk all the way down to lorong 9 for the frog leg porridge .. Stayed at the coffee shop for quite sometime to chit chat and headed home at 1030pm .. HOME SWEET HOME
Memories kept in Princess* ™ at 8:37 PM
