Tuesday, May 09, 2006

Prawning

Haven been sleeping well for the past few days .. Today , as usual is a working day for me .. But guess what , the lazy me yet again message my manager , Felicia , at 07.45am telling her i'll be going to see a doctor and go back work , as i can have 1 more hour of sleep .. Waked up at 09.30am to prepare and go to see doctor at Elias mall .. Terry accompany me to go as he stayed over at my place last night .. After seeing doctor , i don't have the mood to go work anymore ( think of working make me more sick ) and ask for MC from the doctor .. Had 1 day Mc in hand and didn't even bother to report to anyone ( cause nobody will care for me anyway ) .. Had to just try hard to find my own programme and enjoy the few hours that i've left to replenish back the hours i lost while wasting to see doctor .. Went polyclinic with Terry as he also report sick today .. Had laksa for my breakfast ( whereby people is having their lunch ) while waiting the queue at polyclinic .. Planned to go for prawning after both of us have got MC from doctor .. Walked all the way from polyclinic to the prawn pond to had our prawning session .. We bought 2 hours which had already cost us $29 as 1 hour is $14.50 ( see now living in singapore is like killing ourself as things get more and more expensive ) .. Remembered the last time i go prawning it was about $12-$13 and i've already make noise .. Despite the ticket is so expensive , we still pay for it and get started at 01.40pm and we ended at 05.25pm .. * haha * We had extra time as the man never tell us anthing about time's up .. Caught alot of prawn and we headed home straight after it .. Had my dinner taken and watching ghost movie from scv .. Now i going to sleep as the medicine i took is causing me drowniess .. Good night ..

Saturday, May 06, 2006

Changes in life

Lots of thing is happening and changing around me .. Even the one who will / can stand by me also in love trouble .. The trouble that she had in her had caused her to suspect she got depression .. Things aren't getting well for her also .. Sometimes i really don't know how to help her and this stress me alot too .. I got things which i wanted to tell her , letting her know , but all those words are harsh and i know she would not want to hear .. It'll only caused us unhappiness and quarrel between us again .. ** Girl , sometimes i'm harsh on you but giving you good advise doesn't sound nice sometime , you got to accept it .. You really got to put in all your very best in him ... I won't and can't say much here .. Lastly , relationship thing is hard for me like an outsider to help , everything depend on you and him .. It requires two hands to clap in other for things to work out in a relationship ..


**NOW , it's about my problem again .. I broke off with my dear dear , Terry yesterday afternoon .. Reason is i find that the two of us don't match , we won't have any good ending being together .. I know he's good to me , showing his attention towards me .. He just want to ensure i'm safe at home , got food to eat the moment i wake up all this etc .. But , i told him before , i'm weird .. It's hard to catches my heart , my mind , my thinking , my everything .. Sometime i want this from you but somtime i want that from you .. My mood swing and thinking can just change , right on the spot .. I got heart problem ( in chinese ) deep inside me , i also don't know what i want sometime , i'm lost , lost in the sea .. I really don't know .. Now , i don't and can't even understand myself already , not anymore .. Don't even know what i trying to write in my blog .. My blog is like a piece of rubbish , without feeling anymore .. * heartbroken*


Anyway i went out at 1245pm , after i've write the above stuff to zoo with friends .. I just want to relax , trying to be happy as going zoo will make me happy ( maybe i'm too childish , too free with my time ) .. Reached at 2pm , bought the ticket at $15 per person .. Wow , it's getting more and more expensive .. But to me , i don't care anymore .. Just get the ticket and quickly start my tour inside the zoo .. Have alot of fun in there and it's really a good place to go to release my stress .. I just behave like any small kids that i saw in there .. So happy .. Finally i found / got the chance to see my favourite animal .. The Baboons .. Baboon is the only animal in my mind which i wanted to see very much .. With their reddish butts on them , their carefree life , living in the nature and they're so loving .. How i wish i could be like them , living in a carefree world without any stress or pain .. I really do envy them ( sound a bit insane ) .. Oh mighty god .. Can i have a chance to stay in the zoo , a small little wish ? I want to try out the feeling of staying in the zoo too .. * wink * Left the zoo around 5pm and got myself a smoothie , a mango and more flavour want .. Took bus 138 from the bus stop outside to ang mo kio then took a cab down to geylang as my friend had to test the suit cause he got to be his friend's , Ziming , best man .. After finish testing the suit , we walk all the way down to lorong 9 for the frog leg porridge .. Stayed at the coffee shop for quite sometime to chit chat and headed home at 1030pm .. HOME SWEET HOME

Thursday, May 04, 2006

Early Bird

As there's still alot of stuff left behind , this morning i woke up very early .. Meet Felicia 0745 , early in the morning outside BLK 636 and she send me to work .. On the way there , we chat .. One of the topic was , from next week onwwards , i got to go back to third floor ( department name is OCE ) to work .. Wow , to me , it's really a piece of good new upon hearing so early in the morning .. Reach work place at 0800 sharp .. Once reach , i start to do all my pending work .. Work and work and work .. Work non stop till lunch time .. * sad * Oh ya forget to write in this .. My SBUX mummy , Bee Lay , misunderstood me as Felicia .. Oh my god ! She say from far , my back view and hers is almost the same .. * more sad* Had lunch with Gary , Emyline , Prem , Money , Maz and lastly Zaqey at loading bay .. Had been hoon and nasi lemak for lunch .. After finish eating .. I went to take a short nap .. Woke up at 1345 and start working again .. Again i got to rush everything together wth my partner Hamid .. 1800 then go for my dinner break with Sharon , Ah yang , Hamid , Kai Hua and the 2 Chris .. I really dislike the young Chris .. He's like fuck .. You can find him walking here and there the whole day doing nothing and starring at you .. Especially when you're busy that time , he's just beside you looking at you doing your job without even offerring .. Anyway nobody dare to ask him for help too as his sister is our boss left right hand ( in chinese ) .. Really so fuck up right .. Work and work till 2230 then knock off .. Dear dear wait for me outside my work place , DHL building .. Drive dear dear friend's car home as dear dear friend owe him a flavour and that is a deal to allow me drive .. * haha * Speed i'm at is 100km/hr .. Wow .. That's really fast .. It's really the first time i drive so fast with toyota vos .. So happy .. *** Got to stop here , dear dear is sleeping and i'm falling asleep too .. Night .. Will write in tomorrow .. To be contiune .. * wink * ***

Wednesday, May 03, 2006

Being wonder woman , mutitasker !

Today i'm alone at work .. My partner , colleague Hamid , is on mc .. Got to do all the stuffs at work alone .. Example : check the goods which came in , tally everything make sure nothing goes wrong , key in all the item code in our stupid system in the computer ( called LWMS , which also known as receiving ) , go and find where's the goods in location ( whereby some don't even have the location as my colleague didn't do his job well ) , pick those goods which need to ship out by the end of the day , got to do all the outgoing cargo as well ( known as paper work / the invoices ) , daily data entry etc .. I'm like just a wonder woman with many many hands on me , some more got to run from places to places just to do all those stuffs mention above like a crazy woman .. F*** what is that man .. I know now we're short of staff .. But why can't they just spend a bit more money on employing a few more .. Bosses are all the same .. Heartless .. They just only know how to cut costs , didn't even know this will cause our life away .. Working all the way without having enough rest or can't even breath at work will make all of us DIE ESPECIALLY ME ! F*** F*** F*** I'm really really really frustrated with the managment .. Anyway today my whole day in the office was like shit .. Rushing here and there for the whole day .. Vomited again in the evening time , don't even know what really went wrong in me , my body .. My body system is getting weaker and weaker day by day .. Really hope 1 day i'll just pass out and die .. Like that people will then come and appreciated me .. Anyway .. Think 1 day i got to find my manager , Felicia out to have a talk .. I really can't take this type of lifestyle anymore .. I'm going insane .. * ARG !!! * Think i got to stop saying out my work stuff here if not i really going collasped or maybe i'll might just end up in woodbridge mental hospital ..


Ok , now is to talk about me and my dearie ..
Recently me and my dearie dear got alot alot alotof problems .. I don't really know if things are coming out from him or me .. But we just can't stay as good together as in the past .. I know LOVE WILL START TO HAVE PROBLEMS WHEN WE'E AT A CERTAIN POINT OF TIME IN LIFE / PATH .. BUT I JUST COULDN'T LIVE WITH IT .. I'M REALLY HAVING LOTS OF MY WORK LOAD NOWADYAS AND NOW MY LOVE LIFE ALSO GOT PROBLEM .. I GOT NO ONE TO TURN TO .. Been crying out while i'm sleeping at night but nobody , not even a single soul know / feel how bad i'm inside of me .. NOBODY REALLY COULD UNDERSTAND ME RIGHT TO THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART .. DEAR I KNOW I'M YOUR FIRST LOVE AND I CAN'T DO ANYTHING WITH IT TO YOU BUT DEEP DOWN IN ME .. WHAT I WANT FROM YOU IS MORE OF YOUR CONCERN , CARE , TRUST AND MOST IMPORTANT IS YOUR LOVE .. I know i've been saying lots of thing hurting you badly in these few days but i really don't know what i should do anymore .. In life , what we need is friends .. As there's this saying ' all of us need friends when we're outside ( in chinese version ) I don't know how to guide you along by living with me .. I really don't know .. I'm totally flat out .. No more energy anymore .. I hope you can or will get along well with me if you want to stay by my side if not then we got to part .. DEAR I REALLY LOVE YOU BUT YOU NEED TO UNDERSTAND ME WELL ENOUGH IN THE FIRST PLACE .. ** Got to stop here .. End of today .. Enough .. Let me off , i really can't take it anymore ** * ARG !!! *

Sunday, April 30, 2006

It's a mess !

Been staying at home , not even going out since Friday after reached home from seeing doctor at elias mall .. Dear dear came to my place and look after me after his work but i just can't be bothered with it .. I slept throughout the whole night till the next day .. Lucky saturaday is my off day .. Think my manager , Felicia , had forgotten it's my off day cause she call me at 9plus in the morning .. Didn't answer the call as i was still half asleep at that time .. Finally when i woke up , i send her a message back telling her that i still unwell .. Actually planned with gary long long time ago to celebrate his birthday with him .. Due to me still feeling unwell , we had cancelled the plan .. He was a bit upset but no choice .. We really just don't have that fate even keep as a friend celebrating his birthday together .. Anyway time flies .. Every second every minute passes by so fast .. Recently keep having small little argument with my beloved dear dear .. Think it's my illness which caused us quarrel again and again .. Don't know why , whenever i in love with someone deeply .. I sure will to have quarrel with that person .. It hurts me alot too but i just cannot control .. It's like i've been under black spell by those witches like that .. I really don't know what to do when these happen .. Sometimes i just hope my love ones can just sweet talk a bit to me or at least understand me more a bit , but that doesn'e apply to dear dear .. Dear dear seems to be not understanding me enough .. i already tried my very best with him but i just can't succeed .. Why ? Can someone just tell me why ? I need an answer .. Whatever it is .. I just hope things will get better for both of us .. Lesser and lesser arguments for both of us as quarreling hurts ..

Thursday, April 27, 2006

MC again !

Haven been feeling well since last saturday after i woke up from taking my nap .. Went to a disco pub name Shanghai with Gary , Alvin and his friend .. Reached there about 1.30am , seems to be more happening then the first time i went there with my other friends .. Got drunk that night whereby i only drank 1 glass of beer , 1 waterfall and 2 E33 .. Oh my goodness .. Don't know why now i getting so lousy , drank a bit only so fast drunk .. Ended up , Gary had to send me home .. Causing dear dear to get so tenses up as i slept throughout the whole day of sunday without picking or replying his call and messages .. * Sorry dear , there won't be any more of this rubbish in future .. I promise you if i go out drink , i won't get drunk * Anyway i just came back after seeing a doctor at elias mall .. Got sore throat , cough , flu and a bit feverist .. This is the second mc i got for this week .. Wonder what Felicia , my manager , would think of me .. My body has weaker day by day .. What actually happen to me i'm also unsure .. Think got to find one day to go for a body check-up .. * How i wish i was as strong as in the past * Ok , time's up .. Got to stop here , feeling drowsy as i just taken my medicine .. *** Get well soon ***

Saturday, April 22, 2006

Blogging

Been busy recently as i got transfered to a new department having two account on hand ( Account i handling is name as Perkin Elmer and Archive ) .. My current job responsibility is so heavy which causes me had a hard time learning , having headache and gastric everytime .. Stayed late and work overtime for this whole week = shack out totally .. Had a bad time with dear dear , our distant are getting more and more far apart from me although we meet everyday .. Nowadays we have communication problem , he seems to be not understanding enough towards me .. I don't know what to do .. What i did was to ask him to stay away from me .. I don't know am i doing the right thing but i really do hope during this time he can think whether am i worth his love anot as to me , i feel like i don't worth his love anymore .. Ever since be with him , i've changed .. Change to a good girl who will have the mentally of home sweet home .. Have more family programme with my parents and my two younger brother .. Seldom go out , compared to last time .. Hope this can save me alot , let me have saving .. * Not in the mood to blog , so will write in another day *

Prawning
Changes in life
Early Bird
Being wonder woman , mutitasker !
It's a mess !
MC again !
Blogging
Small little organiser
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First day of job training

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